Depression effects every part of your life, and you don’t even realize it.
Low self esteem:
Why doesn’t he like me? because you’re fat and ugly
Why would he ever like you? He won’t. No one wants a suicidal cutter for a girlfriend.
Will anyone truly love you? No because you’re not worth anyone’s time.
Emptiness:
Maybe I should play this game? No. You have no interest in that anymore.
I should probably do my homework now..You can’t. There’s no way you’re going to be able to focus.
I guess I could go work out today. Nope. No energy, you can hardly get out of bed.
Self Harm:
Trigger? Cut.
Why did you just cut? Because you’re stupid and fat and you deserve it.
What’s the matter? You’re feeling guilty for cutting.
How do I let it out? Get the blade.
It’s this never ending cycle, that makes you want to die. And the moments of sanity are so little, it’s difficult to realize.
